Paranoia
Posted: Sun Jan 22, 2006 2:54:32
I'm terribly worried there may be something wrong with my brain. Since you guys seem to enjoy discussing this sort of stuff, and since I don't actually know any of you, here's the situation:
As the topic name suggests, I have become increasingly paranoid about things that I cannot even fathom being paranoid about after the fact. Silly little things, like a car behind me at night or someone I don't know (or do) looking at me.
I am always a bit nervous around groups of people, and more and more I have been starting to feel almost ill (I think it's panic) when surrounded by people I do not know.
I do not take myself seriously, and so when I present myself with my fears, I start to laugh, which makes me worry more that something is amiss. And I have taken up talking to myself as if I were talking with other people almost whenever I am alone.
I want to cry almost all the time. I have a great longing to break down in someone's arms, but my paranoia prevents me from truly opening up to my friends. I fear that my vulnerability will set me in a different light.
I want to speak with a professional, and I only hope my fears can be overcome to seek counsel.
DISCUSS!
As the topic name suggests, I have become increasingly paranoid about things that I cannot even fathom being paranoid about after the fact. Silly little things, like a car behind me at night or someone I don't know (or do) looking at me.
I am always a bit nervous around groups of people, and more and more I have been starting to feel almost ill (I think it's panic) when surrounded by people I do not know.
I do not take myself seriously, and so when I present myself with my fears, I start to laugh, which makes me worry more that something is amiss. And I have taken up talking to myself as if I were talking with other people almost whenever I am alone.
I want to cry almost all the time. I have a great longing to break down in someone's arms, but my paranoia prevents me from truly opening up to my friends. I fear that my vulnerability will set me in a different light.
I want to speak with a professional, and I only hope my fears can be overcome to seek counsel.
DISCUSS!